Diary entry 1)
How could this be? Deceived by my daughter! As soon as Tubal informed me that my daughter had fled, I felt angry yet heartbroken. It was like my own daughter pierced a finely sharpened arrow into my skin, aiming at by hopeless heart.
Jessica playing "thirty pieces of silver" (Matthew 26:15) upon her own father? "I say, my daughter is my flesh and blood" (Act 3.i. 33) but her doings wrong me. She has disgraced me and left with a Christian, Lorenzo. A Christian! Those same Christians who lend out money "gratis" (Act 1.iii.39), Spat upon my "Jewish gaberdine" and called me "misbeliever" (Act 1.iii.106-107).
Is there really more difference between my flesh and hers than ...view middle of the document...
Moreover, I will make that wretched Lorenzo pay for taking her!...
Diary entry 2)
I take the weight of my feet quietly sitting. Listening. Waiting. My bond has been broken and I have not received my 3,000 ducats. The bond, that was sealed with Antonio's blood states that I can take a pound of flesh from any part of his body. Now, I demand for the forfeit which is an equal pound of Antonio's fair flesh.
I will not lay sympathy upon that Christian, Antonio. Oh, the name Antonio angers me. He is the one who called me a "dog", spat "upon my Jewish gaberdine" in Rialto and called me "misbeliever" and his reasons are that I am a Jew (Act 1.iii.106-107). "Hath not a Jew eyes... hurt with the same weapons, subject to the same diseases, healed by the same means... as a Christian is?" (Act 3.i.52-58).
I can remember crystal clearly the time that Bassanio fellow approached me and requested for 3,000 ducats. Me, a Jew? Bassanio had to be distressed and this could be easily acknowledged by his face. So much tension and worry. He was as desperate as an ice cube in hell.
Firstly, I reflected that the loan could not be a large sum due to Bassanio's extravagant spending habits however, the statement of the loan being under the name of Antonio led to the enhancement of the complexion on my face. That scoundrel Antonio! The one who humiliated me in public and resents my religion. The sinner chooses to come to a Jew at the time of his need.
After my continuous repetition of the details of the bond, I thought...