Paul Wilkes memoir, a love story and a struggle with love, in this situation, God. His life remind me of a yo-yo, he started out slow, then moves fast with struggles in the extreme and he finally began to balance himself out with consistency. Paul’s life the basic heart of a religion, you go to church, you pray and learn the most important concepts of the religion. Paul Wilkes's search for God begins in a poor, working class family in Cleveland and winds through lonely nights in a factory, working his way through college; a surprising confrontation during the Cuban Missile Crisis; a torrid romance on the Indian Ocean; acceptance into an Ivy League school; and into the "perfect" marriage, that failed.
The seventh Child of a large family and had many undermining ways of a typical little boy who didn’t understand certain things in life. As Wilkes dwells through a life that begins in a working-class Cleveland neighborhood, he relates his passages of sin and saintliness to people in the world or to other children. He really did not understand the reason behind all of the duties in the church, confession and praying. According to Wilkes as a boy, one night he decided to urinate in the house vent because he supposedly was to tired and afraid to go back downstairs through the dark to use the bathroom. He knew that it was a sinful thing to do, but he did it anyway. He paid for the sin that he did when the wintertime came and the heat had to be turn on.
Wilkes skipped out on many of his duties at the church because he did not want to participate in it due to him feeling as though it took up to much time. Unlike any other boy, paul knew it was sinful to think of a women in a sexual manner and in order for him to still the appearance of a woman he would focus on the attributes one at a time. By doing this method he felt more comfortable and had more control over his desire by not allowing it to escalate to the next level.
Paul began to have a vision of life and he documented that life to him was merely understanding the religion, having a nice job, a house and a loving wife. This image of life is what Paul yearned to succeed at getting too. All through high school Paul began to see that he was an outsider rom others. He had another vision of wanting to be just like a group of kids and noticed that it was a daily battle of feeling embarrassed about who he truly was. According to Wilkes when began to got involved in some activities he would flat out lie to his parents of his doings. He knew that this was a sinful situation, but he felt as though it was the best thing to do at the time to protect what he was interested in at the time, he did not want to be judged for what he did, but be evaluated in measure of why he did it.
Paul finally graduated and began college, the college days of up and downs. A new chapter to his life and him hoping that he will be able to find the answer to life. Wilkes on (page 81-82 e.) began having his...