This refection paper focus on my own experiences related to gender, race, and sexual orientation development during my college years. My reflection will be grounded on three theories: Josselson’s theory of women id development, Ferdman and Gallegos Latino/Latina identity development, and Worthington et al.’s model of heterosexual identity development.
These theories offered me a unique opportunity to reflect and develop my own understanding of my gender identity, race identity, and my sexual orientation identity.
Gender Identity Development
Professor MaryBeth’s PowerPoint introduced me to couple gender identity developments, but one in particular caught my attention, Josselson’s Identity Theory. The readings about gender identity development forced me to reflect on this matter, which I admit that I never pay close attention to this topic before. These reflections lead me back to my college years.
Josselson’s theory analyzes why some women have crisis, and if they integrate their dilemmas into their gender identity. Josselson’s women id development states include: foreclosures, identity achievers, moratoriums, and diffusers.
According to Professor MaryBeth’s PowerPoint, the foreclosure state includes women who adopted an unquestioning acceptance of familial identification. In my experience, I am in this group because I feel like I have internalized and adopted my parents’ values, my parents’ beliefs, their standards about gender, and lessons they taught me growing up. The identity achievers include women who question and challenge choices, have experienced a crisis, and create an identity for them. This group usually explores and challenges their options and they feel like they have the authority to make their gender identity decisions. I am definitely not in this group because I have never broken the psychological ties of my childhood and formed my own distinct gender identity. The moratorium group has experienced an unresolved crisis; however, this group is in constant search for new identities. I don’t see myself in this group because I have always been committed to my gender identity. The last group is the identity diffusers, which the women in this group experience lack of crisis and commitment. I also don’t belong to this group because I don’t lack a gender identity commitment. My gender identity, or my sense of being a female, I believe was well established in my childhood. During my college time was a time for me to intensify my feminist self.
For as long I can remember, I was always introduced to the idea that girls need to be gentle, like pink, and have hobbies like dancing, decorating. I have always done things that were appropriate for my gender and I enjoyed doing it. However, here in America I discovered my other female side.
When I came to America, I felt a release from the pressure of always looking good in Brazil. In America, I feel that I learned different ways of being a female. Here I learn how to paint,...