I looked around me, nothing but laughter, nothing but happiness. My
eyes scanned over the table, at the people that meant the most to me.
My birthday had been the best yet, 'nothing better than being around
your friends on your special days' I seem to recall my mother saying.
I had received many presents, been hugged by many people, enjoyed the
attention, yet there was something; something missing,. As I closed my
eyes I tried to grasp what this feeling was. That day was not the only
day I had been feeling this, but since everyday I could remember;
however, this particular day it was more prevalent than ever before. I
was interrupted by my best friend, "Thank you so much for bringing us
to this restaurant, I love the food."
"It's okay" I replied.
Out of the corner of my eye I saw a distinct character approaching me.
I was shocked, as this particular person was "unable to attend". I
smiled, and looked at Alexis, he sat down next to me and said, "This
day is too important to miss, happy birthday" and hugged me. I was
speechless, I tried to say thank you but I was so overwhelmed with
emotion that nothing came out, several seconds later I was still
hugging him, almost unable to let go. He radiated so much warmth, and
momentarily, I disregarded the feeling that had been on my mind all
evening. As I let go of him, he smiled and without knowing I was
smiling back at him. I turned to my friends, they had all stopped
talking and just stared at us, I felt embarrassed yet completely
secure with showing my emotions. The attention then turned to Tina,
who dropped a knife, knocking other items on the table with it, we
laughed at this but I still could not detract this feeling of warmth
he had given me. A sense of quiet confidence can over me, not only in
myself but in my friends too. I knew that I had the best friends that
one could wish for, but that day just felt extra special and continued
thereafter. I looked at Alexis who was now sitting opposite me. He
smiled at me, I felt reassured and my mind cast back to the time when
he told me he liked me. He had knelt on one knee and offered me a
rose, "You know I will always be there for you, no matter what we go
through, I adore you and I feel closer to you than just a friend".
Having someone like that for you, made me feel special and that life
was worth living. "Amy" a voice called to me from across the table,
"Do you remember when we went ice skating last year?" I nodded, and
smiled at Tim. He started to recall the story; however throughout the
account I could not stop looking at Alexis who was now enjoying the
story. It was at this particular moment in time that I felt the
strangest. My eyes were fixated on Alexis, and...