I have made a countless amount of mistakes in my life, but this most recent event would definitely rank as one of my top 5 mistakes. Lately, this is basically all I’ve been able to think about. When I see a picture or text that was from before I sent what I sent, I think to myself that I wish I could just go back to in time and tell myself to not send that text. But I can’t. I cannot run away from my problems. I have to try and correct my mistakes, mend the relationships that were broken, and make better choices.
As for what motivated me to do it, I am not 100% sure. You told me that ‘I don’t know’ is not a good reason but in the hours that I’ve spent wondering “why”, I can’t think of a good reason. The only thing I can think of was that I was trying to be funny, but that was also regarded as a bad reason. Mr. Flucas told me that it must have been 1 or more of 5 reasons: revenge, anger, power, or 2 more that I ...view middle of the document...
I have learned that I must think before I speak, I could really hurt someone. When I am sending a text to someone, I now imagine what I’m about to say as if I’m actually having that conversation in person with that individual and what the effects of what I’m about to say will have.
I have learned a huge lesson regarding ‘I was just joking’ or ‘I was just trying to be funny’. Sometimes people say things that they think are funny but in all reality there is no humor in what they say. Sometimes people say things they don’t mean or wouldn’t normally say because you are trying to impress other people and say what you think they will view as funny. I’m not trying to make any excuses by saying these things but more trying to understand why I did what I did. Trying to be funny does not make saying hurtful things okay and you should always watch what you say.
The quote “actions speak louder than words” is not necessarily true all the time. Words have a power that you can either use for good or for bad. The Bible puts it this way: “The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit”. I made the mistake of choosing to use my words in a negative way. The way people view you is not only formed by what you do but also by what you say. What you say cam hurt someone just as much as physically hurting them could. The person on the receiving end is the one who determines the impact of words. What you were being serious about may be received as something funny. When you are texting someone, you don’t know how they are going to receive it because they can’t hear your tone of voice or see your body language. I have learned that I must watch what I say because once you say something hurtful, you can only apologize, but can’t take back what you said. You can be forgiven, but what you said will never be forgotten. Now that I have learned this lesson, I will be extremely careful about what I say and I won’t say anything that should not be sent in a text or said at all. We all make many mistakes. If anyone does not make a mistake with his tongue by saying the wrong things, he is a perfect man.